life lessons suck sometimes.

today i'm grateful for the people i know, but especially for two guys in particular.

one walked into my life on complete accident. 

we met through mutual friends one weekend & to be honest, i never expected to hear from him again but we stayed in contact. a month later, after the worst day of my life to date, when no one else was there (literally), he stopped by to pick me up, dust me off and tell me everything was going to be okay. i'm grateful that he stepped and and gave me a few friendly &loving slaps to let me know that i was still alive, crap happens, and life was going to move on. he's become one of the best friends i've ever had to date, and i'm so glad he puts up with my bitchy days, crazy days, sad days, happy days, and all the days in between. several heart to heart conversations and about a hundred card games later, i finally feel much better about life. i wish i could say that things are the same as they were... i can't though. but wanna know something? i'm okay with that. i'm doing good.

the other i met a few weeks after he got back from serving an lds mission. 

he's an awesome guy. seriously amazing. spiritual, funny, not bad looking at all, and is a blast to hang out with & talk to. we went on a date or two, and got along great, but after realizing my life was not in the order it needed to be to carry on a relationship, i treated him kind of awful. i mean, i was my worst self at one point with him. there's no excuse, but i needed a reason for us to stop talking and i guess it worked. i haven't talked to him for a few weeks, and i feel really bad about that. but, the reason i'm grateful for him today is because he helped me realize that there are some things in my life that need to change. i need to get some shiz together and grow up a little bit. so, i thank him for that. 

its crazy to me how much people can teach you about yourself without even knowing it. every person i've met so far this summer has taught me a lesson, probably without me or them even knowing it. but, both of these guys has taught me that life doesn't have to be perfect to be wonderful. and my life really is wonderful. i don't have much to complain about.

lastly, if you're reading this, thank you, no matter what role you play in my life. thank you for keeping me in check, loving me, helping me out. thank you for ignoring me, driving me absolutely insane. thank you for making me want to punch you in the face because you're so stupid. thank you for not hating me after i say something rude without meaning it. thank you for giving me a hug when i need it, talking to me for hours on the phone, sending me a funny picture because it reminded me of something we did together. i'm learning and growing every day. 

thank you. 

xoxo

jessica :)

blogging is hard.

i don't think anyone truly appreciates how much i love idaho. 

but that's something for another time.

i have had an absolutely amazing last couple of weeks, and i have had zero time for blogging. maybe someday soon i'll get around to it more but for right now i'm just having too much fun to sit down at a computer for any period of time. i mean, even my pinterest has been neglected. that's a big deal. 

anyways. 

hope yall are having a great tuesday. 

xox

jess :)

days like today, you wanna make em last.

i have the greatest friends ever. i love it when colton calls randomly and we go out and ride around 50 acre pastures for hours at a time. i love my abs being sore because i've laughed so hard at the stupid things we find funny. i love logan. i love the cowboys i've been hanging out with lately. i love going to roping jackpots and checking out all the guy's butts.  i just love my life.

riley & mal.

probably two of the most gorgeous girls i've ever photographed.

my soul sister. (and other things.)

via @thejessicastory on instagram

you've all been introduced to my three very best friends before on this blog quite often. kathy, summer & clara. today i'm just especially grateful for summer. she became a best friend in a time of my life where i just needed someone with no strings attached. you know, the kind of friend that can tell you that you have a zit that needs popped or that she accidentally used your toothbrush. (crazy stuff happens when you're camping, don't ask.) anyways. if i had to pick one friend that i had to name my soul sister, summer would be her. we have the same eyes, the same hair, the same taste in boys & music, and most importantly, an identical sense of humor. i spent all weekend with this girl & i will miss her probably the most when i go to college. (don't tell anyone else ;) ) 

in other news:

-i have a raging food headache. too much sugar makes my body go haywire. and i mean literally, haywire.

-i enjoy talking to people, however as of late i've become a really bad texter. i used to be pretty good but now i just can't carry a conversation or i get distracted and forget how to reply. so. if you have some spare time and want to call me or skype me, please do.

-i have a raging crush on someone i shouldn't. haha. but it's only a crush so i think i'll get over it.

-i love the olympics. but. female body builders and weight lifters freak me out. especially the chinese ones.

-ryan lochte is a flipping b.a.b.e.... like he's my number one. forget michael phelps, he was so 2008. 

-i move to logan in 20 days. 

and that's all. 

peace

love

blessins.

xox jessica :)

to run with.

i have a serious love hate relationship with running. 

i love it because it makes me feel skinny and rejuvenated. 

i hate it cause it makes me sweaty and tired. 

and today i have an issue. 

i need to revamp my running playlist, because honestly...

at the moment they fail to get me pumped. 

here's what's on my playlist now:

plus like 20 others. 

basically, my question is, 

what do you listen to get you pumped?

holy batman, batman.

i went to the new batman movie premiere with a group of way random people.

the only people that weren't random were summer and landon.

first on the list:

happy hour at sonic.

take summer's truck through the wash.

make a walmart stop.

second: 

get pretty.

redo eyeliner four times.

put on batman shirt.

swear about how hot it is outside.

four. 

wait until dark, drive to theater.

take pictures.

look pretty.

five. 

watch movie.

be satisfied.

get chocolate chip pancakes at 3:30am at ihop.

see people from high school that you hate.

six.

4:50am.

still up.

mountain dew just kicked in.

watch the sunrise.

day two.

party with the other bestie.

get large cokes at mcdonalds.

they changed their cups and i dig them.

they're styrofoam like sonic!

me likey.

no matter how old i get,

i wil alllwayyys love high school musical. 

like you don't even understand my love for their bad outfits and cheesy acting and terrible lip synching. 

i just love it, okay?

i loved the new batman movie.

i was totally satisfied with it, other than the fact that i hate anne hathaway...

anyways. 

love.

peace.

blessins.

prayers for the people in colorado. 

xoxox

jessica :)

i suppose i've been feeling sassy lately.

this post is real long. but it's good. 

so you should read the whole thing. yeah.

um, but for really. 

(i must have been out of school for too long, my english is really good.)

i mean everything has been a "snap my fingers in a z-formation hip rotation" type of thing. come on people, get a clue and get out of my flipping way before i punch you in your dadgum face.

college... i'm nervous for you. but also very excited. 

i went to logan yesterday to drop my brother off at efy and hullo i got lost. desperately. i know in general where everything is but boy can i tell you, i'm so glad that i'm moving in a week before school starts. it'll give me lots of time to deal with this little curse i have called "i can't find anything even if its right across the street without getting lost."

it makes me a little sick to my stomach to see how much college costs. 

i have a summer reading assignment. what the frick, i refuse. 

just kidding. i'm going to be a good student in college. it always seems a little crazy to me that people flunk out of college, because, i mean, you're paying to go there. so you might as well get a quality education while you're at it.

remember this?

my new years resolutions are actually going quite well. one of them was to get to 30 followers and i'm at 23. so. close. i'd really like to get there soon so help a girl out, would ya? :) also. i kinda wanna start doing guest posts with some other girls who have small blogs! yes? no? maybe? 

i kinda have done nothing all summer but watch tv and swim in the lake and drink crystal light and diet coke and listen to good music. speaking of. here's my current playlist:

how country feels randy houser
she's country jason aldean

it's time imagine dragons

cruise florida georgia line

even if it breaks your heart the eli young band

young kenny chesney

radioactive imagine dragons

take a little ride jason aldean

paint sol

5-1-5-0 dierks bentley

and one last thing. 

loves,

jessica.

:)

because i'm proud to be an American.

i am so glad to be an American. 

true blue through-and-through.

and so.

wishing you the best on your fourth of july, 

my favorite patriotic songs.

peace, love, blessings, and freedom,

jessica :)

and in other news,

we're crafting today.

ryan doesn't like to help.

but i made this banner all my myself and it is so dang cute!

 the sister is 11 now & is starting to look so old...

and also, i thought this was hysterical.

*and no, landon & i are not an item or in like or anything.

he's just one of my very best friends.

xoxoxoxo

jessica :)

some random music.

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my weekend was better than yours.

i hung out with my very best friend in the entire world.

it reached 100 degrees. 

pf changs and matching phone cases :)

the bathroom had a nice note on the mirror. haha.

parties upon parties upon parties. i looked hot, no big deal.

i honestly love the treasure valley. my favorite place everrrr.

sleepover with clarrrryy. 

we were up until like, 4am no big deal.

we've been saving juice boxes for two years.

to build a couch.

two year old straws anyone?... haha ewww

THIS WEEKEND WAS FLIPPING AWESOME.

oh wisdom teeth, oh wisdom teeth.

THIS IS SOOOOOO FUNNY.

the best part is at 1:35. 

and also at 3:07 on.

please watch this. it is so funny.

it's just like whatever.

i really like the fact that i look basically exactly the same with and without makeup on. 

it makes for happy skin & happy jessica & happy all around.

my model face needs some work.

and my hair is real frizzy... haha that's embarrassing.

it's fine.

after fishing every day for a week & a half...

i finally caught four fish.

the two that are showing are small but the other ones are a good size.

I LOVE FISHING.

i love my cousins. we were all so cute!

(in case you didn't know. i'm the one in the white standing up.)

((i was so chubby. haha yay.))

YEAH SERIOUSLY WHAT THE CRAP.

there are so many stupid girls that get huge tats with bible verses on them,

and it just irritates me.

yeah.

have i ever mentioned how beautiful my home is? 

loves,

jessica.

le weekend.

i love this picture. its so typical of me and butter.

jessica: oh butterscotch you're so pretty let me hug you.

butterscotch: but you've been hugging me nonstop for the last three years, can you just let go of me?

jessica: but you're so pretty and i just love you and...

butterscotch: no but really. i'm going to lift my head up until you're forced to let go.

jessica: butter, put your head down, i'm not tall enough to hug you when you do that.

yeah. just like that. 

anyways. i had a killer weekend. like really it was so great. 

to sum up:

sadie.

tim.

clara.

coleman.

video.

eagle fun days.

campfire.

madison mallory.

marshmallows.

fire.

winco.

more fire.

bohemian rhapsody.

love.

yay.

chocolate lava cake.

knit skirts.

snapchat.

:)

& she thinks we're just fishin.

today my pops & i went fly fishing. 

we're both big fans. 

but crazy things happen when you put jessica in her natural habitat.

(also known as the wild.)

we kinda got lost on some random backroad and made our truck real dirty.

its a good thing my dad likes country music as much as i do.

we drove through mccall & i really wanted to go lay on the beach.

we didn't catch any fish, 

but we did get humongous diet cokes. 

the stinker store is mint.

and here's a song for your listening enjoyment.