angels.

these are my two closest friends and i. 

they probably don't realize how amazing they are and how much they mean to me, but all i can say is that i'm so ready for a hell of a year with these ladies.

xox

jess

life lessons suck sometimes.

today i'm grateful for the people i know, but especially for two guys in particular.

one walked into my life on complete accident. 

we met through mutual friends one weekend & to be honest, i never expected to hear from him again but we stayed in contact. a month later, after the worst day of my life to date, when no one else was there (literally), he stopped by to pick me up, dust me off and tell me everything was going to be okay. i'm grateful that he stepped and and gave me a few friendly &loving slaps to let me know that i was still alive, crap happens, and life was going to move on. he's become one of the best friends i've ever had to date, and i'm so glad he puts up with my bitchy days, crazy days, sad days, happy days, and all the days in between. several heart to heart conversations and about a hundred card games later, i finally feel much better about life. i wish i could say that things are the same as they were... i can't though. but wanna know something? i'm okay with that. i'm doing good.

the other i met a few weeks after he got back from serving an lds mission. 

he's an awesome guy. seriously amazing. spiritual, funny, not bad looking at all, and is a blast to hang out with & talk to. we went on a date or two, and got along great, but after realizing my life was not in the order it needed to be to carry on a relationship, i treated him kind of awful. i mean, i was my worst self at one point with him. there's no excuse, but i needed a reason for us to stop talking and i guess it worked. i haven't talked to him for a few weeks, and i feel really bad about that. but, the reason i'm grateful for him today is because he helped me realize that there are some things in my life that need to change. i need to get some shiz together and grow up a little bit. so, i thank him for that. 

its crazy to me how much people can teach you about yourself without even knowing it. every person i've met so far this summer has taught me a lesson, probably without me or them even knowing it. but, both of these guys has taught me that life doesn't have to be perfect to be wonderful. and my life really is wonderful. i don't have much to complain about.

lastly, if you're reading this, thank you, no matter what role you play in my life. thank you for keeping me in check, loving me, helping me out. thank you for ignoring me, driving me absolutely insane. thank you for making me want to punch you in the face because you're so stupid. thank you for not hating me after i say something rude without meaning it. thank you for giving me a hug when i need it, talking to me for hours on the phone, sending me a funny picture because it reminded me of something we did together. i'm learning and growing every day. 

thank you. 

xoxo

jessica :)

muddin.

i love these two kids so much. lauren makes me laugh so hard i want to pee my pants and jason is there for good talks, advice and for his knowledge of all the good places to go muddin in cache valley. today we went and ran my truck through this little (and by little i mean not so little) mud puddle today. it was so needed, that thing has been way too clean for way too long. 

i don't know how you city kids keep your sanity. 

mud is so much fun. 

xoxo  

jessica :)

the time i went third wheeling...

just kidding. i wasn't actually a third wheel. but i liked the title, i thought it was clever.

going into the mountains and going shooting is probably my favorite thing ever. 

big thanks to jake. it was a blast.

sun & pickup trucks

i especially love days like today.

in the pre-vet & equine programs, there's an awesome sense of camaraderie. i've only known most of them for less than a year, but i'm going to be with them for the next five or six. we're all so different, from all over the nation, but we all have a common purpose. we're here to help animals, and by extension, help their owners. working with people on farms really brings you together. today i was talking to a guy in one of my classes and he said "you know jess, i'd trust you to stitch me up if i had a really bad gash and i couldn't make it to a hospital." haha what a compliment, huh?  i trust these guys & girls more than anyone. i mean, we let each other drive each other's trucks... thats like the highest form of trust. they've got my back & i love them. 

the sun today was so incredibly needed. i forgot what it was like to get in your car and having to roll the windows down because it's hot inside, or to be walking around classes and get too warm with a sweatshirt on. it's kinda awesome. hey spring. you should stick around for a while. :)

xoxo

jessica :)

when saturdays were actually saturdays.

when i was growing up we had a very specific saturday schedule. 

if things didn't happen a certain way, it was because someone was dying. seriously. 

nothing changed the fact that every saturday, we woke up a few hours later than normal, went out to feed the animals, then came back inside and had pancakes & eggs as a family. then, we went back outside to clean the barn, groom and exercise the horses, weed the garden, clean the chicken coop, go to the feed store, fix fences, and play with the dogs in the pastures for hours and hours. 

while i've been at school i've missed that. most of the time, i work on saturdays & do homework until the sun goes down again. but today, the girls & i made breakfast, cleaned up a little, did some laundry, and have nothing else on the agenda but to watch pride and prejudice. today feels like a real saturday & i kinda love it. 

-jessica.

the family you choose.

it's sad when people you know become people you knew.
when you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life.
when best friends are no longer even acquaintances.
you used to talk to them for hours and hours a day, easily, without even thinking about it, and now you can barely even look at them.

it happens all the time.
and so today, even though i don't treat them as well as i should sometimes,
i'm showing how grateful i am for my friends.

for melia, who's become my college sister. we have so much in common. it's a relief to find someone at school who loves all the things i do & who is so like me. she's quickly becoming one of my best friends & i know god brought us together for a reason.
for scott, who has become one of my closest friends in the last few weeks. we're cousins and i've known him for my entire life, but he's constantly teaching me things and has shown me that cousins can be so much more than just relatives, they can be confidants and friends.
for wendy, who is the best roommate i could ever ask for. she puts up with so much of my crap and still loves me. i owe her forever. i couldn't make it through this semester without her.
for timmy, who i can talk to when i feel homesick. he always knows how what to say to make me feel better & is such an example to me. he just got his mission call to ghana and i couldn't be more proud of him. i know he will do amazing things there.
for summer, who is always there to comfort me when things start to go bad & to keep me up on the drama at good ol' eagle high school. she probably knows me better than anyone on earth except my mom and she was there for me in the darkest hours of my life. i couldn't live without her.
for clara, who keeps me laughing and on my toes. i love our late night conversations about nothing. sometimes she's crazy and out of control, but that's why i love her so much. i know i can talk to her about anything and she can just take it in stride. even though she goes to byu, i still love her to death.
for kathy, who has done so much for me in the last five years. i would not be where i am today, or the person i am today if it wasn't for her. she is the best friend i've ever had in my entire life. we live far away from each other but it doesn't matter because i know she's always there when i need her or when she needs me. she has taught me so much about perseverance when things get unbearably hard and i will always be grateful for the influence she's had on me and my family.

also for landon, jake, jayden, ciah, storm, chas & brennan.
there are countless more and i love each of you forever.

xoxo
jess :)

if you need a good cry,

my homegirl jayden compiled a list of the top 40 saddest songs.

they're sad.

so if you need a good cry, go listen to a few of these. i'm pretty sure that will do the trick.

the sweet life of an ag ed student: that mood

xoxo

jess <3

missy moo cow.

today was bath day at the farm. 

so miss melia & i sprayed down missy moo cow, 

gave her a good lather, 

and then proceeded to blow dry her hair until she was fluffy and dry.

gosh i love my life.

in other news.

i'm going home tomorrow after taking my last midterm.

my brother's last home football game is friday.

my life is good.

xoxo

jessica

byu vs. usu 2012

it took us four hours to get to provo from logan (which is basically ridiculous) and i don't even care that we lost the football game. i got to see all my besties and life is good! 

we stayed in wendy's condo overnight & then i ventured to my grandparents for conference. 

it was the greatest weekend ever.

<3 jessica 

homecoming weekend.

true aggie night. 

best thing ever.

my college sisters <3

i honestly don't know how i'd live without them!

winning football team.

35-13.

now number one in the state of utah.

next up:

I AM SO FREAKING PUMPED YOU HAVE NO IDEA OH MY ASIDFA;SIDFJAS.

haha. but for reals. i am so excited for this game!

love my friends.

love my school.

love my life.

love you!

xoxo jessica :)

my soul sister. (and other things.)

via @thejessicastory on instagram

you've all been introduced to my three very best friends before on this blog quite often. kathy, summer & clara. today i'm just especially grateful for summer. she became a best friend in a time of my life where i just needed someone with no strings attached. you know, the kind of friend that can tell you that you have a zit that needs popped or that she accidentally used your toothbrush. (crazy stuff happens when you're camping, don't ask.) anyways. if i had to pick one friend that i had to name my soul sister, summer would be her. we have the same eyes, the same hair, the same taste in boys & music, and most importantly, an identical sense of humor. i spent all weekend with this girl & i will miss her probably the most when i go to college. (don't tell anyone else ;) ) 

in other news:

-i have a raging food headache. too much sugar makes my body go haywire. and i mean literally, haywire.

-i enjoy talking to people, however as of late i've become a really bad texter. i used to be pretty good but now i just can't carry a conversation or i get distracted and forget how to reply. so. if you have some spare time and want to call me or skype me, please do.

-i have a raging crush on someone i shouldn't. haha. but it's only a crush so i think i'll get over it.

-i love the olympics. but. female body builders and weight lifters freak me out. especially the chinese ones.

-ryan lochte is a flipping b.a.b.e.... like he's my number one. forget michael phelps, he was so 2008. 

-i move to logan in 20 days. 

and that's all. 

peace

love

blessins.

xox jessica :)

she's eighteen.

i dont even really know what to say.
other than.
i owe her.
for so much.

she's the best friend i've ever had in my life, but really she's just the long lost older sister i always needed. and i love her to death. and today is her birthday.

i should end this post before i start crying.

holy batman, batman.

i went to the new batman movie premiere with a group of way random people.

the only people that weren't random were summer and landon.

first on the list:

happy hour at sonic.

take summer's truck through the wash.

make a walmart stop.

second: 

get pretty.

redo eyeliner four times.

put on batman shirt.

swear about how hot it is outside.

four. 

wait until dark, drive to theater.

take pictures.

look pretty.

five. 

watch movie.

be satisfied.

get chocolate chip pancakes at 3:30am at ihop.

see people from high school that you hate.

six.

4:50am.

still up.

mountain dew just kicked in.

watch the sunrise.

day two.

party with the other bestie.

get large cokes at mcdonalds.

they changed their cups and i dig them.

they're styrofoam like sonic!

me likey.

no matter how old i get,

i wil alllwayyys love high school musical. 

like you don't even understand my love for their bad outfits and cheesy acting and terrible lip synching. 

i just love it, okay?

i loved the new batman movie.

i was totally satisfied with it, other than the fact that i hate anne hathaway...

anyways. 

love.

peace.

blessins.

prayers for the people in colorado. 

xoxox

jessica :)

snapbacks & longboards, yo.

he's honestly my soul mate.