days like today, you wanna make em last.

i have the greatest friends ever. i love it when colton calls randomly and we go out and ride around 50 acre pastures for hours at a time. i love my abs being sore because i've laughed so hard at the stupid things we find funny. i love logan. i love the cowboys i've been hanging out with lately. i love going to roping jackpots and checking out all the guy's butts.  i just love my life.

life is so good.

well, my classes are getting ready to wrap up, the summer is well on it's way, i'm moving in with my best friends in less than a month, i get to see horses every day, &i love my job.

i'm not especially stressed or worried about events that are going down in my life because there's absolutely no reason to be.  things will work out the way that god wants them to, and so there's no reason to be all depressed about it. that doesn't mean that life isn't hard, because sometimes it is, and sometimes it sucks, but i don't feel the need to change the way i lead my life just because i'm going through a rough patch. theres no reason to be sad or beg for sympathy or whatever. ya feel me?

 plus, i have an amazing support system. i have some freaking awesome friends that i know would drop anything and everything to come and help me. so, thank you to those who have expressed their support and concern for me over the past few days but i just know that i am doing really really well right now. i am happy & life is so good.

xoxo 

jessica :)

confessions galore.

i'm really quite vain. i like taking pictures of myself and i like it when people take pictures of me. i like wearing makeup & fixing my hair, even though it doesn't happen most days. 

sometimes i really like listening to chris brown, pitbull, jason derulo, usher, ke$ha & dare i say it, britney spears. i'm almost disgusted with myself. but do i care? no, not especially.

when i study, i eat cold cereal & drink either diet coke or raspberry lemonade crystal light.

i love snapchat. i think it's the funniest thing since... well... i just think it's super entertaining. i mean whats not to love? i get to send pictures of myself to my friends and they do the same to me. i'd rather snapchat than text.

i seriously have to restrain myself when it comes to macaroni and cheese. why is that crap so dang good?? it takes a ton of willpower to not eat two whole boxes my myself. (it's happened before.)

my little jaunt as a brunette was fun but i'm ready to be blonde again.

i'm supposed to be writing a paper... um. yeah.


so that's all for today.
i hope you all have an awesome evening/morning/afternoon/whatever.
xoxox
jessica :)

gratitude tuesdays.

la vie est belle, indeed. 

i'm grateful for an awful lot today.

-days & moods that are turned around from the simplest things.

-handwritten letters from missionaries. they are so inspired.

-genuine compliments from people.

-best friends who aren't afraid to tell me how it is, and then help me fix it.

-really big diet cokes. 

-clean sheets and a made bed.

-self confidence. 

-tickets to general conference with clara in two weeks. 

-old friends that call to catch up.

-80's & 90's country music. seriously. if there was ever such a thing as feel good music, this is it.

-boys who understand that sometimes you just need a super huge hug.

-the weather being warm enough to open windows

-payday.

-march is almost over.

-when something just clicks & you understand why things have been happening the way they have.

-my new mixtape >>> (honestly. so much can be said with a well thought out mixtape. burn a cd and i promise we'll be friends forever.)

-patriarchal blessings.

-parents who help me see the big picture but also leave my life up to me.

so. as you can see. my life is really amazing.

xoxo :)

flashback friday.

do you ever get in those moods where all you want to do is look at old pictures and listen to old music? cause i do, and usually it makes me feel better & helps me remember my life is actually pretty damn awesome and that i should probably quit complaining so much.

march first.

what a life i live

i am so. happy.

i really believe that having a life you love is blurring the line between work and play.

i have an amazing job. it's not glamorous and i get sweaty and dirty but i'm doing what i love. i have amazing classes that let me hang out with horses all day, almost every day, and i am constantly learning new things. i have the greatest friends who check on me to make sure i haven't fallen off the face of the earth (thanks melia) & boys who send me texts that make me smile. i love when you can feel heavenly father putting pieces in place in your life. that's what He's doing in mine, and i am so grateful for it. He knows what i need more than i do, and i'm really loving the way things are turning out. so much. i can't remember the last time i felt so happy. :)

xoxo

jessica

flirting with boys and things like that.

i'm jessica. 

i don't mind if you call me jess.

i have green eyes and long hair. 

i'm five foot three and i wear my cowboy boots everywhere.

you can take me or leave me. but i'm also really funny and pretty cute soo... i'd take me. haha. 

as i get older, and as i see the girls i grew up with getting engaged left and right, the more i'm convinced that the man that i'm going to marry will love me for exactly who i am, and not for the girl i portray myself as on facebook, and not the girl that someone else told him i was. he'll get to know me and he'll love me for me. i can't change who i am, and why the heck would i want to? there's no one else exactly like me on earth.

i'm not going to lie, i like flirting with boys. i think it's fun. 

but i've also learned the hard way that it's more important to become friends with a boy you like than it is to figure out the quickest way to get him to kiss you. so, lets be best friends, and then later lets get married. deal? good. 

i'd be perfectly fine with having a boyfriend right now. 

but am i ready to get married? heck to the no. 

maybe in two or three years. 

i have a list of ways to win my heart. if you'd like to know them, stick around. 

i'm doing a post on it later.

but don't worry. it's not too complicated. ;)

xoxo

jessica :)

ten things you should know about me.

1) i believe that everyone deserves to find that one things in their life that makes them feel complete. for me, it's being in a barn. it doesn't really matter what kind of barn, as long as there's animals in it. (but i do like horses the best. hate on it.) its my escape.

2) college is hard for me. i've always been considered a "smart kid". you know, the kind that takes six ap classes their senior year in high school, and does well in all of them. but for some reason, i'm kind of struggling through school. it's completely, 110% worth it in my mind though. i'm here doing what i love to do.

3) the city scares me. it literally gives me a little knot of fear in my stomach. i feel out of place and feel like i'm always getting lost. hahahaha oh wait. i am. because i suck at finding things. which leads me to my next point.

4) i really suck at directions. you could tell me to turn left and i'll turn right. or keep going straight. there's a little disconnect in my brain that makes it impossible for me to find things & to follow instructions on how to get somewhere. it's probably my most frustrating quality.

5) i like people, but i don't need people. for a little while in high school, i felt like i needed to have people with me all the time. but i've gotten past that, and the older i get the more i realize that i really like not having to depend on people and i enjoy being independent. (even though it sucks sometimes.)

6) i love to drive places by myself. sometimes it's nice to have company, but most of the time i really love getting in my truck and driving to my destination by myself. it's kind of therapeutic.

7) i both love and hate idaho. my family has lived there for almost four years now, and all of the absolute best and absolute worst experiences of my life have happened there. i consider it more my home than oregon, and i lived there for twelve years. i spent all of elementary, middle, and a year of high school in stupid tigard, and i don't really remember anything about it there. (and nor do i want to.)

8) if you've got dark hair, you're in luck. i've never liked a guy with blonde hair. sometimes i think they're cute and stuff, but i've never had a crush on one or really even ever been interested.

9) i really, really, really love crime shows. ncis, csi ny, law and order... you get it.

10) i have three best friends. three girls who i know i can go to at any time for anything. collectively, we've all been through the same things which is why i need each of them. you know who you are and i'll love you forever.


thats all.
love, jessica.

four years.

i love you baby girl! happy four years, and here's to many more.

gone to the dark side, be back soon.

my hairs have been turned brown thanks to the local beauty school. i actually really really like it, but it's weird to see myself in the mirror with dark hair. i've been a brunette twice in my life. once, when i was born, for about three years, and then again when i was a freshman in high school. blonde is my forte. but whatevs, it was a much needed change. 

i'm now a brunette. hate on me.

xoxox

jessica.

the bangs are back.

the last three years.

i started this little tradition a few years ago where i take a picture of myself on christmas eve. i like to see how i change throughout the years. as you can tell, my hair is pretty darn different, but other than that i look basically the same. my hair is a little darker this year than it usually is, and we're in a different house. but, the thing is, looking at each of these pictures brings back memories. not just memories of what my hair was like, or how i did my makeup, but memories of people that came and left my life. people that affected me in some way or another. my maturity levels (ha). so, here i am. 2012, 2011, 2010. and next year, 2013 will be added to the list.

oh dear.

i hope you guys like random posts, cause this one is the grandaddy of all random posts. haha.

if you can't walk the talk, then don't talk at all.

sometimes i forget things. 

i'm honestly one of the most forgetful people on the planet. 

i'd like to think that i'll remember your name, and your birthday, and when i have class, and what homework i have to do, and where i put things.

but lets just be honest, i forget things too often.

watching some people try to flirt is just painful. like, please no. 

i know that sounds mean but in all reality it just makes me uncomfortable.

in most situations, i end up vacating the premises.

I HATE SHOWERING.

well. 

i love taking showers.

 but i absolutely hate getting dressed after. 

you're all wet and you have to dry off and put clothes on again (i hate wearing clothes...)

and my hair is all wet and it takes a solid half hour to brush out... yeah. 

sometimes when i get bored in class i just like to watch people. 

they're weird.

nuff said.

getting out of bed is the hardest part about waking up. 

if i could do school and work from my bed, i absolutely would.

it's so much easier to sleep in and skip class when there's snow on the ground.

oh, speaking of snow.

logan got it's first snow on tuesday! 

it was delightful.

for me, the good life is driving back from the barn covered in mud, smelling like cows and horses, and blasting dierks bentley. 

my goodness my life is great.

peace n love n blessins!

xoxo

jessica 

hey i'm legal.

GUYS.

today is my birthday.

and i'm eighteen.

my first birthday adventure was dying the underneath of my hair black. 

i really like it. a lot. 

i promised my mom that i wouldn't do anything crazy with my hair but i think this is perfectly acceptable. haha.

anyways. 

happy birthday to me.

thats all. 

xoxox

jessica :)

hey guys college is great.

look, i met melia from little country!

we're basically like long lost friends, whatever.

its cool meeting a blog friend in real life because its like you know everything about them already. it's like friendship in a box... but different? i don't even know what i'm saying right now. 

anyways. 

thats about all that happened today!

peace out,

jess

my soul sister. (and other things.)

via @thejessicastory on instagram

you've all been introduced to my three very best friends before on this blog quite often. kathy, summer & clara. today i'm just especially grateful for summer. she became a best friend in a time of my life where i just needed someone with no strings attached. you know, the kind of friend that can tell you that you have a zit that needs popped or that she accidentally used your toothbrush. (crazy stuff happens when you're camping, don't ask.) anyways. if i had to pick one friend that i had to name my soul sister, summer would be her. we have the same eyes, the same hair, the same taste in boys & music, and most importantly, an identical sense of humor. i spent all weekend with this girl & i will miss her probably the most when i go to college. (don't tell anyone else ;) ) 

in other news:

-i have a raging food headache. too much sugar makes my body go haywire. and i mean literally, haywire.

-i enjoy talking to people, however as of late i've become a really bad texter. i used to be pretty good but now i just can't carry a conversation or i get distracted and forget how to reply. so. if you have some spare time and want to call me or skype me, please do.

-i have a raging crush on someone i shouldn't. haha. but it's only a crush so i think i'll get over it.

-i love the olympics. but. female body builders and weight lifters freak me out. especially the chinese ones.

-ryan lochte is a flipping b.a.b.e.... like he's my number one. forget michael phelps, he was so 2008. 

-i move to logan in 20 days. 

and that's all. 

peace

love

blessins.

xox jessica :)

some days, i really love urban dictionary.

have you ever urban-dictionaried your name?
if not i encourage  you to do so.
the results are often hilarious, inappropriate and highly accurate.
take my name for example.

1.	Jessica	2464 up, 992 down
	A girl you are lucky to know. Jessica tends to have the brightest smile. She usually gives you full attention & have an intense stare that can be intimidating, but she is so sweet there is no need to be scared. If you are a guy & you let Jessica get away then you are a dumb sh*t because once Jessica loves, she loves forever. Jessica deserves guys that will go to the ends of the earth, & walk on fire to be with her. That's how amazing she is. Jessica is also a good friend that is always there for a friend in need. she are loyal, kind & forgiving. Anyone who would take advantage of or lie to Jessica is a worthless piece of poo who doesn't deserve to live. If you have ever wronged Jessica you should be eternally ashamed of yourself. Jessica stands up for what is right, & tends to do the right thing. She is never too proud to say sorry if they do the wrong thing. Basically Jessica is amazing. She is a fun loving sweet girl who isn't afraid to speak her mind. She is often loved by others, but there are those who don't like her. She is a thrill seeker and loves to test her limits. She sees herself as an average person, but people find her very sexy and attractive. She tries her best to help those around her, even if they don't fall into her circle. Be warned, if you piss off a jessica she is more likely to make your life such an utter hell for a very long time than forgive you any time soon. However she does look over a lot of things so it is kind of hard to piss her off. She has this carefree air about her, and may seem like a bubble head, but when you get to know her she is a very smart person, and is very complex with her thoughts and her views on life. She loves the arts and animals. She can however be very dominant in a lot of situations and is better left alone when she is having a bad day because if she says she can punch your lights out, then chances are she can. She can brighten anybody's day with a simple hello and a smile, and hates to see others bullied.

oh. my. heck. 
my day was made when i read this. 
haha. 
i love urban dictionary.




xoxoxox
jessica :)

I like to instagram myself.

welp.

today was a waste.

and i feel like yuck.

unfortunately i'm still real moody 

and want to eat junk food realllllly bad 

and grew a fricken huge zit on my face. 

on my chin. 

and i feel really fat. but its mostly cause i'm bloated.

and this post already contains a lot of information you probably didn't want to know. 

sorry about that. 

anyways.

i'm dying to ride butterscotch.. it's been over a month since i've been able to go spend more than 45 minutes with her. that's the longest gap of riding i've had since my freshman year of high school and i really don't like that. at all. like i think about it and i start crying. and i'm being serious. lets blame that on hormones too, okay? okay. 

in other news.

i just bought a new bedspread for college.

HOLY COW IT'S CUTE.

i also am having a mini panic attack because i move out in oh, 36 days. 

i guess thats it for today.

jessica.