life is so good.

well, my classes are getting ready to wrap up, the summer is well on it's way, i'm moving in with my best friends in less than a month, i get to see horses every day, &i love my job.

i'm not especially stressed or worried about events that are going down in my life because there's absolutely no reason to be.  things will work out the way that god wants them to, and so there's no reason to be all depressed about it. that doesn't mean that life isn't hard, because sometimes it is, and sometimes it sucks, but i don't feel the need to change the way i lead my life just because i'm going through a rough patch. theres no reason to be sad or beg for sympathy or whatever. ya feel me?

 plus, i have an amazing support system. i have some freaking awesome friends that i know would drop anything and everything to come and help me. so, thank you to those who have expressed their support and concern for me over the past few days but i just know that i am doing really really well right now. i am happy & life is so good.

xoxo 

jessica :)

flashback friday.

do you ever get in those moods where all you want to do is look at old pictures and listen to old music? cause i do, and usually it makes me feel better & helps me remember my life is actually pretty damn awesome and that i should probably quit complaining so much.

sunday.

have an awesome sunday you guys.
xoxo

the sun always rises.

every morning, i watch the sun rise out of this barn door. some days it's hidden from fog, or rain or snow clouds. on a really cold, clear day, you get a sunrise that looks like this. other days, with just a few clouds, there are beautiful colors thrown. 

some days it rises earlier, some days it rises later. but the important part is, 

it always rises. 

the early hours of the morning are always spiritual for me. they're quiet and beautiful and so peaceful. my mind is always the most calm first thing in the morning, and things always make the most sense. i usually have my best ideas, solve my hardest problems, do the most difficult things early in the morning. 

i have been stressed out of my mind lately. i'm good at putting up a good front, because it's easier to just tell people that you're okay than to explain what's worrying you. today at work, around 5:30am, i was sitting on the guard rail of one of the tie stalls waiting for one of the girls to bring in a load of straw. it was quiet, i was the only one in the barn. i was just sitting still, looking around and kind of dreading the work that needed to be done, when a couple of little birds flew down from the rafters and sat in the straw right in front of me. they picked up some straw with their beaks, hopping around and chirping. they sounded so happy i couldn't help but smile. i had a really comforting thought come to me. it said, "your Heavenly Father cares about these little birds, and their well being. He cares about the cows you take care of. He even cares about those who have forgotten about him. What makes you think he doesn't care about you? He loves you. Always has, and always will."

it was such a perfect time for me to realize that i am so blessed. i have incredible parents who i am so lucky to be close to. i have two awesome brothers and a little sister who i love. my life is good. i have my struggles just like everyone else, and sometimes i feel like no one could understand. it's in these little moments that i remember that i'm never alone. i have thanked my heavenly father over and over again this week for the way things are falling into place. i couldn't be happier.

xoxo

jessica

flirting with boys and things like that.

i'm jessica. 

i don't mind if you call me jess.

i have green eyes and long hair. 

i'm five foot three and i wear my cowboy boots everywhere.

you can take me or leave me. but i'm also really funny and pretty cute soo... i'd take me. haha. 

as i get older, and as i see the girls i grew up with getting engaged left and right, the more i'm convinced that the man that i'm going to marry will love me for exactly who i am, and not for the girl i portray myself as on facebook, and not the girl that someone else told him i was. he'll get to know me and he'll love me for me. i can't change who i am, and why the heck would i want to? there's no one else exactly like me on earth.

i'm not going to lie, i like flirting with boys. i think it's fun. 

but i've also learned the hard way that it's more important to become friends with a boy you like than it is to figure out the quickest way to get him to kiss you. so, lets be best friends, and then later lets get married. deal? good. 

i'd be perfectly fine with having a boyfriend right now. 

but am i ready to get married? heck to the no. 

maybe in two or three years. 

i have a list of ways to win my heart. if you'd like to know them, stick around. 

i'm doing a post on it later.

but don't worry. it's not too complicated. ;)

xoxo

jessica :)

it's all about the long term.

GOALS. 

if you're anything like me, you hate that word. something about the sound of it, and the memories of dumb leadership seminars and young women's lessons make me hate the word "goal". i have heard the words "take some time to write down long and short term goals on this piece of paper" so many dang times it makes me want to punch a wall. the mere mention of someone telling me to make goals makes me want to do the exact opposite, and have absolutely no goals. (it's my belligerent side coming out).

lately though, i've realized why adults put so much pressure on young people to write down what they want to do with their life. having long and short term goals makes doing the things you want to do more fun, and more importantly, it gives you the strength and insight to fight through the hard times. 

it gives you the ability to wake up at 4am every day for 6 hours of work 

& still be able to stay on top of your classes. 

it makes the days spent covered in horse & cow crap much more bearable. 

it helps you learn to appreciate a good night's sleep. 

the days spent working outside in the below freezing weather go by quicker, 

and sore muscles and a tired mind recuperate quicker. 

the way i see it, you can either let your life defeat you or you can let your life teach you how to grow and become a strong, hard working, brave, kind, resilient person. to me, having the long term goals constantly in sight (along with a heavy dose of faith) makes all the hard, terrible, exhausting days worth it. i know exactly what i want, and i know i'm getting closer every day.

i love the direction my life is headed, 

and i'm excited for the future.

xoxo

jess.

some sunday things.

look how dang beautiful my home is. and look at that beautiful temple. i sure love this place.

i've never really been one to be openly spiritual, or one to share personal spiritual experiences without being prompted or asked. but, there are some things i've been thinking about lately that are just amazing and i feel like should be shared.


YOU WILL NEVER BE LEFT WITHOUT A PLACE TO TURN.
i have found this to be more true than i ever thought it would be in the last couple months. someone might show up out of the blue and say, "here, let me help you," or situations might miraculously work out that just a day before seemed hopeless. and, when nothing else works, listen really closely with your heart. your father in heaven is probably trying to tell you something. but it doesn't really matter which way help comes, it just matters that it always will. 

THE EARTH IS A BEAUTIFUL, MIRACULOUS, AMAZING, PERFECT PLACE.
i've decided that i love being up before the sun rises, and before the birds even start singing, and watching the sun rise. i am so lucky. working out at the barns has just solidified my love for animals, nature, and hard work. there is something infinitely remarkable and satisfying about the partnership that humans have with these animals. sometimes i swear at them and call them stupid, but i really do love them. i couldn't be any more blessed that every morning is spent around these horses and cows that i love so much. i have witnessed some seriously amazing things in those barns, and i truly believe that our relationship with god can be made stronger through spending time with his creations.

THERE IS NO ONE YOU CAN'T LOVE ONCE YOU KNOW THEIR STORY.
incidents and trials in my life have changed me in a lot of ways in the last year or so. i've become less trusting and i usually assume the worst about people at first. it's not a very good way to live, but this new semester in school has already shown me that there really is no one you can't love once you know their story. now that doesn't necessarily mean that they don't annoy you & you don't want to smack them every time you hear their voice, it just means that you understand that they have had trials in their life that have shaped them, just like you've had some that have shaped you, and that they're doing their best.


really though, my life is kind of a mess right now but it doesn't even matter. i just feel so blessed, that there isn't any room in my heart for stress or unkindness or anxiety. and that's all.

xoxox
jessica.

p.s. i love this song.

wow.

it's been a year exactly since i started this blog.
so much has happened since then.
i've done so much growing up, it almost makes me sick to think about it.
right now, i'm at a place that i never thought i would be at.
things have happened to my family that i never thought would happen.
i've become stronger.
more thoughtful.
more understanding.
less judgemental.
more flexible.
2012 sucked, lets just be honest. but, despite that, i'm very grateful for all the personal growth that has occurred from the trials.

it's been a year since today that this blog has been up.

in exactly a year, the jessica story has gotten exactly 10,000 pageviews. that's more than my first blog had in the whole six years i had it. you guys are awesome.

so, lets take a look at this year, shall we?

JANUARY

- went to see brad paisley, the band perry, and scotty mccreery at the idaho center with dear chas. probably the best concert i've seen to date.

- celebrated my three year anniversary with the best horse ever. 

- realized that the beginning of my life was just around the river bend. man, little did i know just how hard it would be. 

FEBRUARY

- said some pretty smart things.

- visited utah state, hoping it would be my future home. 

- fell in love with cache valley.

MARCH 

- decided to be kinder.

- learned some hard lessons and realized that i could survive college.

APRIL

- had the best and most meaningful easter ever. 

- some crazy shiz happened to my family and i learned some very important lessons the hard way.

- realized that i might be one of the few country girls at utah state. 

MAY

- my family moved out of our home in 24 hours and realized that our support system was bigger than i could have ever imagined.

- lived with my best friend for two months.

- celebrated mothers day with my three mother figures. 

- graduated from high school.

JUNE

- reflected on everything i've learned about myself thru the years.

- spent some quality time with my dad.

JULY

- went to the midnight premiere of the new batman with my bestie.

- drove to logan and back in one day. 

- realized after having a relationship with a non-country boy i couldn't settle for anything but. 

AUGUST

- my college countdown reached the single digits. 

- i moved to logan.

- met my twin. 

- realized that utah state is the best place on earth. 

- went to my first college football game as a student. 

SEPTEMBER

- realized how blessed i am to be country. 

- became a full fledged member of the equine program at utah state. 

- rushed the field after the best football game in utah state history. 

- planned homecoming week and participated in my first ever true aggie night. 
- turned the ripe old age of 18.

OCTOBER

- drove to byu for the byu vs. usu football game, and to visit my two best friends. 

- started club calves.

- went to my first residence life retreat with area government and made 

some simply amazing new friends. 

- went home and went through the boise temple open house. 

- finished my cow and sold her at auction. 

NOVEMBER

- celebrated a very low key thanksgiving with my family. 

- realized just how grateful i am for my friends. 

- second guessed what i was supposed to be doing with my life. 

DECEMBER

- saw my first collegiate horse show and realized that i'm doing what i'm supposed to. 

- came to the conclusion that girls are absolutely insane.

- finished my first amazing semester of college. 

- dealt with some death and other hard things. 

so that's about it! this year was definitely a year of extremes- both the extreme good and the extreme bad, but you know what? i am beyond grateful for how much this year has pushed me, stretched me, broke me down and built me up. i am so excited for what this next year has to bring!

loves, 

jessica. 

hard places.

have you ever noticed that trials come in series? i feel like the saying "when it rains, it pours" can be accurately used to describe this last week and a half. there are so many things that are going wrong.

this week has been an awful one. a girl and a boy from my high school were in a very serious car accident earlier this week. my brother was really close friends with the boy, and i was acquaintances with the girl. he will be fine, while she is still in a coma. i was friends with her older sister, we graduated together. and while we were never especially close, i feel hurt in my heart for her and her family. i can't imagine getting up in the morning and wondering if today was the day my only sister would finally wake up and be alright. i am so proud of haley for being so strong, and i look up to her more than words can say. her beautiful sister has been in my family's thoughts and prayers constantly.

it was also finals week. i failed one of my classes and had a serious three day long panic attack while frantically trying to figure out how to pay for my school next semester. i still haven't found a solution, but it's a constant, prayerful process. i also found out that i'll have a new roommate next semester. the ones i have right now are crazy enough, and having to deal with losing wendy and getting a new one might just push me over the edge. but, i know it will be all okay. wendy will be an amazing ra for the girls upstairs and my new roommate might just be exactly who i need.

and of course, on top of this cake was the shooting today. no one knows why things like this happen to the most precious of God's children, we only know that we have to trust his plans. i cannot imagine the heartache and grief and anger that the parents, families and friends of those sweet, sweet children are experiencing tonight and will be living with for the rest of their lives. it's so hard not to question our heavenly father, and be bitter when things like this happen. those precious babies are in the arms of our savior and have already fulfilled their purpose on earth. they are home now.

perhaps the hardest part of these tragedies is that they happened right in the middle of the Christmas season. maybe it's a reminder to us to keep Christ the center of this holiday, and realize that nothing we receive this season is greater than the love and sacrifice our savior gave us. He is the reason that our minds can be at peace in this crazy, awful, wonderful world. He is the reason that i am comforted when i think of those people that were part of the shooting, the adults and the little children, both the ones that have passed away and the ones who survived, and i know that their peace of mind will return and that their families will be reunited with them.

i am so grateful to be with my family tonight, all of us safe and sound under one roof. i love them to the moon and back, and i pray that the same safety finds you and your loved ones tonight. give them all big hugs and kisses before bed and make sure they know how much they mean to you.
love always,
jessica.

things i don't understand about girls.

it's not a wonder that boys love us girls. i mean, come on, we're beautiful & majestic & we smell nice. but, regardless of the plus sides of women, my own gender tends to confuse me sometimes. we're emotional & catty and more often than not, really crazy. there are some things that us girls do that i will probably never understand. and here they are.

the gossip: a girl can tell you all she wants that she never gossips about other girls, or that she's not catty, but ya know what? living with a bunch of girls has taught me otherwise. and guess what? the ones who say they're not good at living with girls are the most catty, cause they're used to the boys catering to their every need. i've seen it multiple times. girls tend to run their mouths, & even though they tell themselves that they're not gossiping... they are. in fact, the amount of drama girls cause is directly proportional to how much they say they hate drama. truuuth. 

goo-hoarding: i got this term from jenna marbles and it is literally spot on. i don't know about the rest of the girls in the world, but i am completely incapable of totally finishing a beauty product. it really doesn't matter what it is. shampoo... nail polish... facewash... mascara... lip gloss... chapstick... moisturizer... you get the idea. i can't do it. the bottles are always like 1/8th full and they always take up space in my cupboards. it's an epidemic. maybe there should be a show on tlc about it. haha.

how we insist that boys be perfect: you see this all the freakin time. girls can let themselves completely go and be unhealthy, but they can tell themselves "i'm beautiful no matter what!" which i believe is true to a point. but. the thing that really irritates me is that us girls expect to find a prince charming when we're really not cinderella... at all... yeah. one of my roommates and i were talking about this the other day. if you're a 10, you're probably going to attract a 10. and by 10, i mean you're a kardashian and can marry whoever the heck you want. if you're an 8, you'll attract an 8. if you're a 4, you're going to attract a 4. that's just how it is. so stop complaining about how no hot boys like you and take a freakin look at yourself, and find a boy that's like you. cause chances are, if you're not model material, you're not gonna marry a model. that's how relationships work, y'all.

all that crap inside our bags: but mostly receipts, random objects, and super old pieces of nasty gum from like, six months ago. yeah i don't know why we insist on keeping trash inside our bags. pieces of paper, old granola bars, (in case we're suddenly ravenous), 138593 tubes of lip gloss, chapstick, etc., 3 or 4 empty gum packets, movie ticket stubs... you get the idea. 

the things we lie about: no, i don't like him. yeah i like never have to study for anything. of course this is my real tan! i never watch that show. i miss you! no, i'm not jealous! so glad i'm single, best thing ever. i have like 500 followers on pinterest. i love you so much! lets hang out soon! he's just my best guy friend. of course i don't like him still. i am so fat right now. i can eat like whatever i want without getting fat. no, of course i'm not on my period. i know how to drive a stick. i'm so happy for you! enough said? yep. i think so. 

so, what don't you get about girls?

xoxox
jessica :)

where are you willing to go?

after a nice long chat with one of my best friends this last week, i've decided to post about the ability to change and progress. this is a topic that is so dear to my heart because i've seen firsthand the ability the lord has to change our lives for the better and direct us to happier paths. 

there are so many people that you meet every day that have struggles and trials you never could have imagined. there are people that have things in their lives that they wish they could fix but are afraid to for fear of disappointing family members or friends, or are embarrassed to be judged by peers and leaders. we all like to pretend that we have no issues, but every single person you meet has dealt with something you couldn't imagine. 

there are things about your best friend that you probably don't even know. i never realized how strong people are until i came to school and met people from all over the world and heard about the things they deal with, whether it be family problems, financial problems, temptations, or things they're working on fixing. people amaze me all the time. 

so. moral of the story. 

don't be afraid. don't be embarrassed. 

god can take you amazing places. it is all dependent on you. are you willing?

do i really want what i thought i wanted?

i never knew what i wanted to be when i was a kid.

people would ask me "what do you want to be when you grow up?"

the answer was always, "i don't know, i guess i'll figure that out when the time comes."

fast forward to freshman year of high school. i was suddenly thrust into the horse world. i was completely in love. i still am completely in love. all of the sudden, horses were a long term part of my future. then, after i moved to idaho,  i was dating a cowboy. he was a senior at the time, and was applying to utah state. usu had never even been on my radar. to be honest, i'd never really heard anything about it, but through him i found out about their equine science and pre vet program. it sparked my interest, but really not enough to get me that interested. i'd always wanted to be a political science or economics major. i'm really good at that kind of stuff. 

then all of the sudden, i woke up one morning and kind of knew that i wanted to be a vet. i hadn't ever thought about it before. i talked about it with my parents and they were 150% supportive.

so now here i am, sitting at utah state, which happens to be my dream school, majoring in equine science. i've decided to double major in bio veterinary science as well. lately though, i've really been questioning whether i have the ability to go through with this whole thing.

i don't know if i'm capable of learning enough, or working hard enough, or measuring up to what it takes to become a vet. i don't even want to start my own practice. i don't know, i guess it's still too early to decide what exactly is going to happen with my life. 

it's also about that time to start thinking about a minor. 

i've narrowed it down to either

spanish,

economics, or

business.

i just cant choose.

blehhh.

growing up is so much harder than anyone said it would be.

xoxo

jessica 

a year ago.

was 11/11/11.

i had a boyfriend.

i was a senior in high school.

we still had our house in eagle.

i was dumber than i am now.

really, i was stupid.

i got in trouble a lot.

i started driving my truck.

my best friend was coming to see me.

so many things were different.

it's weird to look back and remember what my life was like, because it's changed so drastically in the last year. like, so much. more than i thought was ever possible. i'm a different person than i was then. i'm much more guarded and emotionally hard. i don't cry as much, i don't get upset as easily. everything that's gone down in the last year has seriously toughened me up and i'm grateful for it, surprisingly. it prepared me for living on my own and being in charge of my future. i feel different. in a good way.

xoxo

jessica.

boise temple.

the boise temple open house was a blast. i loved the new inside and outside! what a blessing to know that we can go there. 

american honey.

hey guys,

i love america

cowboys

country music

horses

utah state university

my little sister

ford trucks

and even the cow that pooped on my shoe today.

I FEEL SO GOOD.

i'm going home on thursday. 

i'm freakin excited.

that's all. 

she grew up good, she grew up slow, like american honey.

pinterest has been inspiring lately.

fragile.

warning: this is a real talk post.

i'm feeling really blessed for my life today.

i hear girls talking about how much they struggle with things and it's kind of sad to me. things that some girls struggle with never faze me. things like body image, fitting in, you know. the usual.

i have issues just like everyone else.

but when i think about it, they're not the usual issues.

sometimes i'm a little insecure but 98% of the time i'm totally confident in myself.

i never have problems making friends.

i rarely have body image problems. i'm comfortable in my skin.

i am totally okay being by myself. 

people talking about me behind my back has never bothered me because i knew that the rumors were always false. and if they're lies, who cares if people believe them? all that matters is that you know in your heart that you told the truth or did the right thing and everything will work out.

after a really long heart to heart with my one of my best friends tonight, i realized just how blessed i am, especially for some specific things. 

1) i've never had a problem relating to other girls. 

2) going to parties where people are only half dressed and beer is passed around have never appealed to me. at all.

3) because i'm paying to be in college, i'm going to get my hiney out of bed and go to class every morning no matter what so that i can get good grades. 

4) doing the right thing isn't hard.

we're all a little fragile.

we all have our problems, things we aren't sure about, things we wish we could change. 

i do, and you do, and your best friend does and your worst enemy does too. 

i just typed out four huge paragraphs about what i'm feeling right now and then deleted them, because all i need to say can be condensed right down to three sentences.

you know what's right, so do it.

if you're not doing what's right, change it.

and you're loved no matter what.

and that's basically all i have to say about it. 

peace n blessins.

jess xoxo

where i grew up, we rode in trucks.

so i have this major pet peeve.

it's about people who claim to be country. 

so i realize that everyone wants to be a country boy or girl... cause lets face it, we're the hottest, we have the most fun, listen to the best music, drive the best vehicles... but we also work the hardest. and thats where my peeving starts. 

i've decided you cannot call yourself a country person unless you work like a country person.

those of us who have worked or lived on farms or ranches know just what a sacrifice it is.

do you have a pair of muck or work boots? wake up early consistently to take care of the animals or crops? can you drive a truck down a dirt road? know the difference between a kubota and a deere? ever hauled & stacked hay or pulled a trailer full of your livelihood? 

basically, what i'm trying to get at is that not everyone that claims they're a country person actually are. 

it takes work and dedication.

owning a pair of justins or ariats and listening to country music doesn't make you a country girl. 

you have to earn it.

and now i'll step off my soap box.

and now yall know my pet peeves. 

xoxo

jessica :)

i suppose i've been feeling sassy lately.

this post is real long. but it's good. 

so you should read the whole thing. yeah.

um, but for really. 

(i must have been out of school for too long, my english is really good.)

i mean everything has been a "snap my fingers in a z-formation hip rotation" type of thing. come on people, get a clue and get out of my flipping way before i punch you in your dadgum face.

college... i'm nervous for you. but also very excited. 

i went to logan yesterday to drop my brother off at efy and hullo i got lost. desperately. i know in general where everything is but boy can i tell you, i'm so glad that i'm moving in a week before school starts. it'll give me lots of time to deal with this little curse i have called "i can't find anything even if its right across the street without getting lost."

it makes me a little sick to my stomach to see how much college costs. 

i have a summer reading assignment. what the frick, i refuse. 

just kidding. i'm going to be a good student in college. it always seems a little crazy to me that people flunk out of college, because, i mean, you're paying to go there. so you might as well get a quality education while you're at it.

remember this?

my new years resolutions are actually going quite well. one of them was to get to 30 followers and i'm at 23. so. close. i'd really like to get there soon so help a girl out, would ya? :) also. i kinda wanna start doing guest posts with some other girls who have small blogs! yes? no? maybe? 

i kinda have done nothing all summer but watch tv and swim in the lake and drink crystal light and diet coke and listen to good music. speaking of. here's my current playlist:

how country feels randy houser
she's country jason aldean

it's time imagine dragons

cruise florida georgia line

even if it breaks your heart the eli young band

young kenny chesney

radioactive imagine dragons

take a little ride jason aldean

paint sol

5-1-5-0 dierks bentley

and one last thing. 

loves,

jessica.

:)

the spring that changed me.

this song sums up my life. like, perfectly.

i know a lot people are worried & aren't all the way informed so i figured i'd do a little (haha.. little) post about it.

but.

there's too much happening. i don't even know where to start..

1) a long time ago, my dad refused to do some huge business work for some really prominent people because it wasn't honest. ever since then, they've been trying to get back at him for 'hurting' their operations.

2) two weeks ago the fbi showed up on our doorstep at 6:45 in the morning and arrested my dad on charges of pension fraud, which are totally untrue. some people managed to twist information around in order to make it look like he was guilty. he did nothing wrong. he spend overnight in jail and then was let out with an ankle monitor. yeah, my dad's under house arrest. no big deal. (ever seen the tv show white collar? it looks just like that.)

3) its a really long and complicated and sickening story, but our home was stolen out from under us illegally, but there's nothing we can do to prove it right now. innocent until proven guilty? please. its more like guilty until proven innocent. we had an agreement that we could stay in our house until graduation and then we could move out. yesterday at 2pm, they showed up with an eviction notice saying we had 24 hours to be out of our house. (which, btw, is illegal.. its the law in idaho that you have 72 hours to pack up and move. but whatever.)

4) we had to find places to put our horses, dogs, rabbits, and chickens. they're all spread out at multiple different places with multiple different amazing families. that was the first issue. our friends brought their horse trailer over and we loaded up and took them to their home. they're staying there for a while. right after i got home from that, i found my best friend and her sister in my room. they'd started to pack for me.

needless to say, i lost it.
i've never cried so hard in my life.
the worst feeling ever is knowing that you don't have a home to go home to. like really? its gut wrenching. imagine feeling scared of the scariest thing in your life times four.

it is such a blessing to have so many people that are willing to go out of their way to help us.

5) right now, i'm staying with my best friend and her family. i love them just as much as my real family. my life is currently spread out between like five people's homes. my shoes are at one house, all my clean clothes are at another, all my dirty clothes are at still another, and my makeup, two pairs of yoga pants and various t-shirts are with me. yeah, it sucks but i'm alright.

my extended family is awesome too. they're such a support to us right now.

a lot of people have asked about my plans for this summer.

i'm moving down (up?) to logan as soon as possible to get a job, and i'm actually super excited. (don't get me wrong, still plenty nervous but still really excited.) i'm planning on starting school in the fall as usual.

also. i have a small favor.
if you're in the boise or logan area and know anyone that's selling a small car with good gas mileage pretty cheap.. let me know :) i'm not taking my truck with me because it's expensive and hard to park in small college parking lots.


love,
jessica.