i believe in doing what you love.

i believe in doing what you love. 

for example. 

i love horses, taking care of animals, and playing the guitar. 

lately, i've really been focusing on myself and making sure i'm doing as good as i'd like to be. so, that means a lot of horse therapy, music lessons, and helping out the vet students. i'm busy from 10 am until 10 pm most days, but i love it more than i can really say. it's amazing how much doing what you love can help you heal. 

go do something you love today.

xox jess

still alive.

hey guess what? i'm still alive over here. it's been a rough couple months, and if i haven't kept in touch so well, i'm sorry. things are definitely moving forward, and i'm glad that they are. change is always hard, but i learned that it's even harder when you don't accept it and go with it. the more you fight it, the harder it gets. acknowledging that God has put you in a situation for your own benefit makes all the difference. He knew i was strong enough to struggle through the summer, and i'm so blessed to have learned such valuable lessons. i've changed for the better- i'm stronger, more flexible and true to myself. 

sometimes it seems like bracing your feet and turning your back to the wind makes it all better, but holy cow does it only make it worse. touche, life. lesson learned. 

so pretty much... i'm just glad i'm back to feeling like myself. i've had a lot of friends make blogs lately and i'm absolutely loving reading what everyone has to say about their life experiences right now. so, yall should keep it up. haha.

xoxo

jessica

understanding the rapids.

life can be compared to a river.

every once in a while there will be calm spots, but large stretches of river are rapids, of all sizes. 

there will be good times in each of our lives; times when things seem to work out perfectly. it's a calm stretch where everything fits together, pieces fall into place and being content simply means sitting back and enjoying the scenery. then, there are the rapids. some will be small, and you simply have to hold on tight for a second until you're over the rough patch, but others will be class five rapids that leave you hanging on to whatever you can with the tips of your fingers for what seems like eternities. i've had rapids in my life that leave my mind and body numb and exhausted because i've just been trying to survive for so long, just like bracing yourself to travel down intense rapids would.

looking at this river from the bank or an overlook, it's beautiful and awe inspiring. looking at the river from the middle of a little plastic raft... well it could be downright terrifying. 

being in the middle of a series of rapids is scary. 

taking a step back towards the bank and realizing that the journey we're taking down the river is incredible is a crucial part of our spiritual, physical, and mental growth. keeping a heavenly perspective is so important, yet so often forgotten. i know i forget to step back all the time, but it's alright because i have a river guide that shows me the safest routes around the sharp rocks, eddies, and logs that could drag me under. 

trusting your river guide is a leap of faith sometimes. God knows that we're scared, and we just want to be in a calm stretch again. however, he also knows that traveling down the hard road will teach us things we couldn't have learned any other way. 

this week, i'm working on trusting my river guide more fully. after all, he knows my river better than i do. 

oh dear.

i hope you guys like random posts, cause this one is the grandaddy of all random posts. haha.

if you can't walk the talk, then don't talk at all.

sometimes i forget things. 

i'm honestly one of the most forgetful people on the planet. 

i'd like to think that i'll remember your name, and your birthday, and when i have class, and what homework i have to do, and where i put things.

but lets just be honest, i forget things too often.

watching some people try to flirt is just painful. like, please no. 

i know that sounds mean but in all reality it just makes me uncomfortable.

in most situations, i end up vacating the premises.

I HATE SHOWERING.

well. 

i love taking showers.

 but i absolutely hate getting dressed after. 

you're all wet and you have to dry off and put clothes on again (i hate wearing clothes...)

and my hair is all wet and it takes a solid half hour to brush out... yeah. 

sometimes when i get bored in class i just like to watch people. 

they're weird.

nuff said.

getting out of bed is the hardest part about waking up. 

if i could do school and work from my bed, i absolutely would.

it's so much easier to sleep in and skip class when there's snow on the ground.

oh, speaking of snow.

logan got it's first snow on tuesday! 

it was delightful.

for me, the good life is driving back from the barn covered in mud, smelling like cows and horses, and blasting dierks bentley. 

my goodness my life is great.

peace n love n blessins!

xoxo

jessica 

how is it already october?

how is it already october??

i feel like i live in some sort of time warp. 

it feels like i've been in college forever, but also like it hasn't been that long at all! 

all the sudden october is here but it feels like it needs to be november. 

yeah i don't know. haha. 

i'm thoroughly convinced that logan, utah is one of thee prettiest places on earth during the falltime.

fall in logan means 

long hikes up the canyon with sam, 

weaning the foals, 

carving pumpkins, 

drinking apple cider, 

and pulling out the sweaters.

tomorrow is supposed to be in the low 60's and i'm so excited for fall weather to finally be here in full swing. 

also, why did no one ever tell me to get spotify earlier?

it's only the coolest thing since microwave popcorn.

in other news,

i really want a good steak and mashed potatoes. yum. which leads me to my next subject.

today i had class on the killfloor, so basically i watched three cows go from living breathing cows into cuts of beef. it was really interesting to say the least. and i'm pleased to say that i have a stronger stomach than i thought at first. 

when people are pushy i'm purposely difficult and belligerent just to make them mad.

bad habit? haha yes.

& i think that's it for today.

love, peace, n blessins.

xoxo

jessica :)

homecoming weekend.

true aggie night. 

best thing ever.

my college sisters <3

i honestly don't know how i'd live without them!

winning football team.

35-13.

now number one in the state of utah.

next up:

I AM SO FREAKING PUMPED YOU HAVE NO IDEA OH MY ASIDFA;SIDFJAS.

haha. but for reals. i am so excited for this game!

love my friends.

love my school.

love my life.

love you!

xoxo jessica :)

it's fall.

logan canyon, september 21.