muddin.

i love these two kids so much. lauren makes me laugh so hard i want to pee my pants and jason is there for good talks, advice and for his knowledge of all the good places to go muddin in cache valley. today we went and ran my truck through this little (and by little i mean not so little) mud puddle today. it was so needed, that thing has been way too clean for way too long. 

i don't know how you city kids keep your sanity. 

mud is so much fun. 

xoxo  

jessica :)

life is so good.

well, my classes are getting ready to wrap up, the summer is well on it's way, i'm moving in with my best friends in less than a month, i get to see horses every day, &i love my job.

i'm not especially stressed or worried about events that are going down in my life because there's absolutely no reason to be.  things will work out the way that god wants them to, and so there's no reason to be all depressed about it. that doesn't mean that life isn't hard, because sometimes it is, and sometimes it sucks, but i don't feel the need to change the way i lead my life just because i'm going through a rough patch. theres no reason to be sad or beg for sympathy or whatever. ya feel me?

 plus, i have an amazing support system. i have some freaking awesome friends that i know would drop anything and everything to come and help me. so, thank you to those who have expressed their support and concern for me over the past few days but i just know that i am doing really really well right now. i am happy & life is so good.

xoxo 

jessica :)

i like carbs.

i realize that the title of this post has absolutely nothing to do with the picture of this cute mare and her baby. but ya know what? i really do like carbs. like bread. and potatoes. and steak. in fact sometimes i feel like a man because i just want steak. it's a problem. hahahahah what who am i kidding it's not a problem. it's great. 

it was 46 degrees today and i almost cried i was so happy. i didn't know what to do with myself. so. i drove to class early, made some crystal light, played some loud music. it was great. but i lost my favorite pair (read: my only pair) of sunglasses. so... thats sad. but hey jack the grass is showing and that's a big deal.

when i'm older i want to live in tennessee. and texas. actually... probably not texas. my dad's from there and i've heard horror stories. but who knows. 

MY MIDTERMS ARE DONE HALLELUJAH. (i just spelled hallelujah right on the first try. hallelujah.) 

my camo shirt got a hole in it. oh well. that means i get to buy four new ones to replace it. muahaha.

i love duck dynasty. and i'm kinda really glad i'm going home next week to watch the new ones i've missed. roommates are dumb. and duck dynasty is funnier when i watch it with my brother. did that rhyme?...

mmkay thats all. 

xoxo

jessica

five things that don't suck about today

ONE. 
i got some much needed girl and horse time without the stress of a lesson. it's amazing how therapeutic burying your face in a patient horse's mane is.

TWO. 
27 dresses is on tv. as far as chick flicks, this is on the top half of the list fo sho. 

THREE. 
my apartment smells like the caribbean. it's nice.

FOUR. 
i love my girls and all, but having a good talk with a boy is always nice. guys have a totally different perspective on the world, & talking to and getting advice from him was so needed. 

FIVE.
rekindling old friendships. i love catching up with people i haven't talked to in months or years.

oxox
jessica

the bangs are back.

hard places.

have you ever noticed that trials come in series? i feel like the saying "when it rains, it pours" can be accurately used to describe this last week and a half. there are so many things that are going wrong.

this week has been an awful one. a girl and a boy from my high school were in a very serious car accident earlier this week. my brother was really close friends with the boy, and i was acquaintances with the girl. he will be fine, while she is still in a coma. i was friends with her older sister, we graduated together. and while we were never especially close, i feel hurt in my heart for her and her family. i can't imagine getting up in the morning and wondering if today was the day my only sister would finally wake up and be alright. i am so proud of haley for being so strong, and i look up to her more than words can say. her beautiful sister has been in my family's thoughts and prayers constantly.

it was also finals week. i failed one of my classes and had a serious three day long panic attack while frantically trying to figure out how to pay for my school next semester. i still haven't found a solution, but it's a constant, prayerful process. i also found out that i'll have a new roommate next semester. the ones i have right now are crazy enough, and having to deal with losing wendy and getting a new one might just push me over the edge. but, i know it will be all okay. wendy will be an amazing ra for the girls upstairs and my new roommate might just be exactly who i need.

and of course, on top of this cake was the shooting today. no one knows why things like this happen to the most precious of God's children, we only know that we have to trust his plans. i cannot imagine the heartache and grief and anger that the parents, families and friends of those sweet, sweet children are experiencing tonight and will be living with for the rest of their lives. it's so hard not to question our heavenly father, and be bitter when things like this happen. those precious babies are in the arms of our savior and have already fulfilled their purpose on earth. they are home now.

perhaps the hardest part of these tragedies is that they happened right in the middle of the Christmas season. maybe it's a reminder to us to keep Christ the center of this holiday, and realize that nothing we receive this season is greater than the love and sacrifice our savior gave us. He is the reason that our minds can be at peace in this crazy, awful, wonderful world. He is the reason that i am comforted when i think of those people that were part of the shooting, the adults and the little children, both the ones that have passed away and the ones who survived, and i know that their peace of mind will return and that their families will be reunited with them.

i am so grateful to be with my family tonight, all of us safe and sound under one roof. i love them to the moon and back, and i pray that the same safety finds you and your loved ones tonight. give them all big hugs and kisses before bed and make sure they know how much they mean to you.
love always,
jessica.

things i don't understand about girls.

it's not a wonder that boys love us girls. i mean, come on, we're beautiful & majestic & we smell nice. but, regardless of the plus sides of women, my own gender tends to confuse me sometimes. we're emotional & catty and more often than not, really crazy. there are some things that us girls do that i will probably never understand. and here they are.

the gossip: a girl can tell you all she wants that she never gossips about other girls, or that she's not catty, but ya know what? living with a bunch of girls has taught me otherwise. and guess what? the ones who say they're not good at living with girls are the most catty, cause they're used to the boys catering to their every need. i've seen it multiple times. girls tend to run their mouths, & even though they tell themselves that they're not gossiping... they are. in fact, the amount of drama girls cause is directly proportional to how much they say they hate drama. truuuth. 

goo-hoarding: i got this term from jenna marbles and it is literally spot on. i don't know about the rest of the girls in the world, but i am completely incapable of totally finishing a beauty product. it really doesn't matter what it is. shampoo... nail polish... facewash... mascara... lip gloss... chapstick... moisturizer... you get the idea. i can't do it. the bottles are always like 1/8th full and they always take up space in my cupboards. it's an epidemic. maybe there should be a show on tlc about it. haha.

how we insist that boys be perfect: you see this all the freakin time. girls can let themselves completely go and be unhealthy, but they can tell themselves "i'm beautiful no matter what!" which i believe is true to a point. but. the thing that really irritates me is that us girls expect to find a prince charming when we're really not cinderella... at all... yeah. one of my roommates and i were talking about this the other day. if you're a 10, you're probably going to attract a 10. and by 10, i mean you're a kardashian and can marry whoever the heck you want. if you're an 8, you'll attract an 8. if you're a 4, you're going to attract a 4. that's just how it is. so stop complaining about how no hot boys like you and take a freakin look at yourself, and find a boy that's like you. cause chances are, if you're not model material, you're not gonna marry a model. that's how relationships work, y'all.

all that crap inside our bags: but mostly receipts, random objects, and super old pieces of nasty gum from like, six months ago. yeah i don't know why we insist on keeping trash inside our bags. pieces of paper, old granola bars, (in case we're suddenly ravenous), 138593 tubes of lip gloss, chapstick, etc., 3 or 4 empty gum packets, movie ticket stubs... you get the idea. 

the things we lie about: no, i don't like him. yeah i like never have to study for anything. of course this is my real tan! i never watch that show. i miss you! no, i'm not jealous! so glad i'm single, best thing ever. i have like 500 followers on pinterest. i love you so much! lets hang out soon! he's just my best guy friend. of course i don't like him still. i am so fat right now. i can eat like whatever i want without getting fat. no, of course i'm not on my period. i know how to drive a stick. i'm so happy for you! enough said? yep. i think so. 

so, what don't you get about girls?

xoxox
jessica :)

do i really want what i thought i wanted?

i never knew what i wanted to be when i was a kid.

people would ask me "what do you want to be when you grow up?"

the answer was always, "i don't know, i guess i'll figure that out when the time comes."

fast forward to freshman year of high school. i was suddenly thrust into the horse world. i was completely in love. i still am completely in love. all of the sudden, horses were a long term part of my future. then, after i moved to idaho,  i was dating a cowboy. he was a senior at the time, and was applying to utah state. usu had never even been on my radar. to be honest, i'd never really heard anything about it, but through him i found out about their equine science and pre vet program. it sparked my interest, but really not enough to get me that interested. i'd always wanted to be a political science or economics major. i'm really good at that kind of stuff. 

then all of the sudden, i woke up one morning and kind of knew that i wanted to be a vet. i hadn't ever thought about it before. i talked about it with my parents and they were 150% supportive.

so now here i am, sitting at utah state, which happens to be my dream school, majoring in equine science. i've decided to double major in bio veterinary science as well. lately though, i've really been questioning whether i have the ability to go through with this whole thing.

i don't know if i'm capable of learning enough, or working hard enough, or measuring up to what it takes to become a vet. i don't even want to start my own practice. i don't know, i guess it's still too early to decide what exactly is going to happen with my life. 

it's also about that time to start thinking about a minor. 

i've narrowed it down to either

spanish,

economics, or

business.

i just cant choose.

blehhh.

growing up is so much harder than anyone said it would be.

xoxo

jessica 

life lately in 140 characters or less.

i love the show Moonshiners.

if you ask to have a piece of my bacon, the answer is no. no, no and no.

dino nuggets are the food of champions.

life's a bitch cause if it was a hoe it would be easy.

if Texas ends up seceding it will suck for the Mexicans cause they'll have to illegally cross 2 borders.

pizza delivery cars should be equipped with sirens and be able to speed and run red lights.

boobytrap backwards is partyboob... carry on.

it makes me laugh when white girls have black girl names.

hi, my name is rod, and i like to party.

i want to make out with dierks bentley.


xoxooxox
jess :)

wife material.

i'm just gonna toot my own horn for a second.

i'm dang crafty you guys. and i'm a really good cook. lets just be honest, 

i'm gonna make a great wife someday. maybe in like 5 years. or more. yeah that sounds nice.

happy sunday!

xoxo

jessica :)

missy moo cow.

today was bath day at the farm. 

so miss melia & i sprayed down missy moo cow, 

gave her a good lather, 

and then proceeded to blow dry her hair until she was fluffy and dry.

gosh i love my life.

in other news.

i'm going home tomorrow after taking my last midterm.

my brother's last home football game is friday.

my life is good.

xoxo

jessica

lame horses & club calves.

guys, i have a confession to make.

i'm turning into a full fledged redneck.

i talk like them, i dress like them, i act like them... (sometimes i even smell like them.) (but don't tell my mom.)

but hey, i love it.

there's this horse at the university that i love to death. she's been really sore lately & today during our lesson she started limping way bad and didn't even want to put any weight on her front foot. so, the vet got called out to look at her. we thought it could be a problem with her shoe but really it was just a muscular soreness problem. he just gave her a bantamine shot & she's on stall rest now and will be all better by the end of the week, which is good. cause i love her.

i love my life oh my freaking heck. 

i love being around horses and cows and sheep everyday, and learning about how animals work and what makes them tick. 

like today in one of my classes, i learned that if you give bute (horsey advil) in a shot, if you put it outside a vein it melts a hole in the muscle. yep. and in my other class i learned about the structure of an egg, and it turns out that theres a lot more to it than just a yolk, shell & white. haha.

i'm doing this thing at the university called club calves.

basically what we do is train a weaned calf (either a steer or heifer) to lead at the halter 

and perform show maneuvers.

if you know someone that needs to learn serious patience, send them to club calves. 

we'll make them the most patient person on the earth.

if you thought training horses was hard, they're freaking geniuses compared to cows.

the calf i was helping with today had just been de-horned & had a bunch of stitches on the top of his head. while we were pulling him around he banged his head on the fence and burst his stitches... so me & the other girls ended up with a bunch of cow blood on our arms. yay?

this is what a de-horned steer's head looks like.

this is one of my besties jayden & her steer joshy.

all the club calves.

as always, 

life is good & people are crazy. 

 xoxo

jess :)

homecoming weekend.

true aggie night. 

best thing ever.

my college sisters <3

i honestly don't know how i'd live without them!

winning football team.

35-13.

now number one in the state of utah.

next up:

I AM SO FREAKING PUMPED YOU HAVE NO IDEA OH MY ASIDFA;SIDFJAS.

haha. but for reals. i am so excited for this game!

love my friends.

love my school.

love my life.

love you!

xoxo jessica :)

guys, i'm just so busy.

s t r e e t  p a i n t i n g

street painting is exactly what it sounds like. 

we close down major intersections in logan (with the help of the police) & then we paint a bunch of utah state stuff on the streets for homecoming week.

it's so much fun oh my goodness. i had paint in my hair for like, four days after. 

b a n n e r s  f o r  d a y s

basically... we have a bunch of ugly and unecessary banners hanging in our living room. 

it's just like whatever. 

oh. and my roommate is so cute.

today i rode this little mare named sue. i call her suzy q. 

she's the most beautiful bay ever and i just love her so much. (see above).

she's a reined cow horse so she was so much fun to ride. 

really light on her mouth and front end, has real nice spins and shes also really fast and cowy. i like that.

i love horses so much. a;lskdfja'slf.

in other news.

i wanna go fishing really bad. take me?

i'm working true aggie night, so stay tuned for some super awkward and awesome stories about random people kissing on top of an A under the moonlight. wow. just saying that makes me feel awkward.

i love utah state.

i'm super busy and should be asleep right now but whatevaa.

it's fine.

xoxox 

jess.

it's fall.

logan canyon, september 21.

hey i'm legal.

GUYS.

today is my birthday.

and i'm eighteen.

my first birthday adventure was dying the underneath of my hair black. 

i really like it. a lot. 

i promised my mom that i wouldn't do anything crazy with my hair but i think this is perfectly acceptable. haha.

anyways. 

happy birthday to me.

thats all. 

xoxox

jessica :)

god bless those true aggies from utah.

god bless a true blooded aggie from utah.

long story short. 

best fricken football game ever.

we camped out for three hours before hand. 

we laughed. we cried. we won. 

we stormed the field. 

we did the scotsman on the field. 

it was the coolest thing ever. 

i love my school to death.

take that utah. 

whaaadup.

xox jessica :)

this that and everything in between.

i'm feeling random today. 

we're going on 44 hours until kickoff for the USU v. U of U game.

i'm convinced there's a special place in hell reserved for people who act dumb on purpose for attention.

i'm that girl that eats like a lineman in the middle of two-a-days. what can i say?

yeah... i gotta stop sleeping through things.

my hair has grown like three inches since i've lived in utah.

kiss tomorrow goodbye by luke bryan is probably the sexiest song ever. hot dang.

these 3-5 hour nights of sleep should probably end soon.

first of all, i hate you. second of all, i want to kiss you.

and i think that's all for today, folks.

hoodie allen for dayz.

now. y'all know that i'm not a huge rap/hip hop fan. 

at all.

but. i just found (thanks to my roomie's boyfriend) this artist, hoodie allen.

if you're gonna listen to hiphoppy stuff... listen to this. i fricken love it.

so here's my four favorites. 

in order of how much i like them. haha.

overwhelmed? yeah me too.

i'm a little overwhelmed. 

i leave for college in 10 days. 

however.

i'm really proud of myself because i finished packing my room up in one afternoon. that's a big deal for me. haha. i just have a few last minute things to buy & then i'm set.

this post is what i like to call blog barf.

it's basically everything thats happened in the last week crammed into one post. 

readysetgo.

okay, i saw this on the side of facebook where it says "recommended friends." IS THIS FOR REAL? well, apparently because i texted one of my 6 mutual friends and he said that chris p bacon is in his student ward at BYU. huh. 

we definitely bought 4 pounds of gummy worms.

and then they all got eaten.

i'm going to miss winco in utah.

obviously i'm the cute one in this friendship.

and then we had a party. 

the mountain is on fire. 

 and i had to drive through it.

 this little fox followed me for probably a quarter mile on my run last week. 

sometimes i get bareback butt.

 there's not a whole lot that i love more than the smell of a freshly mowed & baled field. 

it's beautiful, too.

also... sometimes my friends and i blow up coke bottles.

xoxoxox

jessica.